Ok so i have not posted in a while but it goes like this! I am definetley done with wes all thanks to this guy named holden who i dated for 4 whole days!!! omg that did not last but but but!!! Now i am dating sean and i have been for a while my life has really turned around i stopped all that stupid pain! its done forever and ever!

So the way i see it…

is that im going to be single for a VERYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY long time i mean i guess thats alright since im only 13 but it seems to me if i find the one now then later in life i dont have to worry about being that adorable little old lady feeding crumbs to the birds…. but maybe i will be like her but in a better way…. imagine this.. tiny elderly women in the middle of a big park surrounded by roses.. in her hand she has a little notebook with a picture of a very handsome soldier on it… obviously this is an old picture from what? 2017? anyways… you ask her “is that your son?” she responds OH MY NO!! then she laughs you feel a hint of pain in her voice. “he was my fiance” oh whats his name? “well his name was dakotah….” “at one time we were madly in love… i am ybe not sure if it was a thousand years ago or less more” what happened to him? just then you see a small tear roll down his face…. ” its not the way you think.” ” you are thinking he was shot….but no”  TO BE CONTINUED

Quick

Quick summary of what you have missed!! first me and wes done forever (i promise) 2nd i am back in love with dakotah to me he is perfect in every single way possible and i will love him through n e thing!! 3rd im not so sad n e more i think i am happy again.

So… what now?

So last night wesley decided to bring up my father at first i was smiling like “did he really just say that” but then i stood up and i walked away.

Can someone??

Can someone please explain to me how in the fuck bella donna kincade got my fucking password on here and made a secondary account???!!?!? cause i would LOVE to know!!

obsession

so now hannah thinks im obsessed with her she says people told her i was i think she came up with that on her own she even told me she didnt think she could come to my birfday,,, thats so fucked up.

Yesterday my transit began.

So i was supposed to start my transit period yesterday (era of total peace) AND I DID!!  So first me and wesley broke up sad right? WELL NO!! you see this led to me meeting my new best friend also my pretend wife on facebook!! here name is hannah marie bear and im miranda bear!! See we aggree on every level we are exactly alike and the best part? SHE IS WESLEYS SISTER!! i know what ur thinking… But wouldnt that be hard to deal with? Well it isnt at all its actually easier… i love this chick yesterday was so happy for me although im still cursed with losing my old best friend madison.. but im only slightly ok with it i mean maybe it was meant to be?

La la la madison i cant do this!!

so the day before yesterday because of this stupid boy im dating (wesley) i lost my best friend im not quite sure why i said those things to her but i did… and so today i thought was gonna be a great day… NOPE wesley decided to tell me he doesnt want to date me till im 16… and i told him I AM NOT GONNA WAIT FOR YOU I WONT BE SINGLE WHEN IM 16!!! Madison i hope you read this.. im really sorry i <3 u…

Love love love love love love love love love love love!!!

So me and wesley have finnally gotten back together!!! yay and we have already lasted 3 whole days!! So looks like the new year is my second chance i so often prayed for in 2011 i guess my praying really pulled through i asked for forgivness, wesley, and good fortune. i got Wesley to forgive me and i also forgave him, now i have wesley, and i jsut came into alott of money!!

 

 

I L<3VE U 2012!!!

I almost forgot how easily you forgive yourself…

So today my father sent me and my siblings $125 each so great thing right? Well not for me if you have read my past post you understand the messed up situations im in… So of course he is begging for forginess a second chance… he wrote me a short letter and my eyes overfilled with tears… these things dont come easy how can i tell my dad that i dont know how to forgive him so he shouldnt try? i mean sure he is offering me money and a cellphone but you cant buy my love i would rather that you earn it.Daddy… i love you but…i dont know if i forgive you.